To evaluate,,
My project,,
I am unsure how to feel about this project,, in brutal honesty I have definitely struggled with it, but in conclusion I am happy with the end direction. It took me a while to find my feet and once I had, I was to realize I didn't like the feet I had found,,
So to speak without the riddles, I shall try to explain in an ordered manor, the chain of events that led me to this conclusion,,
Beginning this project I was drawn to the idea of using the ordered opposites of opaque and transparency, two words that have always been of high interest to me, but was unsure of what to use for direct imagery. I was looking for something accessible, relevant and of interest to me, eventually deciding upon looking to antique lace. Something I have been besotted with for years and something that I have acquired quite a good collection off,,,
,,, but I couldn't keep the interest and although I like some of the reactions I created in response to the lace, I felt nothing was happening, nothing was exciting, to me it felt flat, flat and dishonest.
So instead I went in search of the subject of many lace designs, I was back to the theme of flowers and botany. This I fear is where I began to loose context.
(so i suppose in hindsight this was probably the making and breaking of my project)
I got lost with what i was trying to achieve, I think i was trying to find some motive but in this time spent to much time searching rather than experimenting. I spent too much time drawing from different plants but with out any specific driving force, therefore I feel I was blindly leading myself deeper into the labyrinth I had personally created.
I feel like a certain sense of clarity began to be reinstated when we were to write our own briefs, forcing me to open my eyes and figure out a definite direction in which to take this project.
(so i suppose in hindsight this was probably the making and breaking of my project)
I got lost with what i was trying to achieve, I think i was trying to find some motive but in this time spent to much time searching rather than experimenting. I spent too much time drawing from different plants but with out any specific driving force, therefore I feel I was blindly leading myself deeper into the labyrinth I had personally created.
I feel like a certain sense of clarity began to be reinstated when we were to write our own briefs, forcing me to open my eyes and figure out a definite direction in which to take this project.
"I intend to look at life and decay, exploring the boundaries and connections between them, looking for where growth ends and decay begins. I am not looking to make an accurate response but to form an impression of how I see the relationship merging and congealing between the two.
To do this I will take imagery and inspiration from plants and flowers, watching as they strive for life, trying to capture that battleground where growth and decay collide. I plan to concentrate upon mark-making and colour application, experimenting with different media and processes."
From this I began to play with the idea of using different medias and colours as symbols for this interaction, creating my own battle grounds within a given form. Sampling on different materials and playing with layouts, trying to achieve a sense of strive of growth and the fight of decay.
My conclusion of this project is uncertain, I am happy with the direction i eventually grasped, but in no way with how i went about getting there. In terms of the outcome of my work, I fear I wasted a lot of time without having any direction and this can definitely be seen
My conclusion of this project is uncertain, I am happy with the direction i eventually grasped, but in no way with how i went about getting there. In terms of the outcome of my work, I fear I wasted a lot of time without having any direction and this can definitely be seen
